Perhaps its time to let go of the past and stop harping on it i dont want to lose everything again Should learn to cherish the people around me Thanks for everything =) Wait for me... i will be moving on with my life...
Up till now. i still dont know what i should do at all It still hurts alot.alot what should i do? i pray all night hoping that things will change hoping that i can go back to the past. It wont come true I am lost It's so painful...
Its all my fault i brought everything upon myself right from the start
Finally a week has passed. Time for a break and to reorganise my thoughts Lots of things happen in merely one week's period Things happened too fast Its difficult to catch up Mathematics was of moderate difficulty though no recurrence unexpectedly lucky PnC and Probability aint a killer..
Should I Smile Because You're My Friend Or Cry Because Thats All We'll Ever Be?
A Million Words Would Not Bring You Back, I Know Because I've Tried. Neither Would A Million Tears, I Know Because I've Cried.
Forget The Times You Walked By, Forget The Times You've Made Me Cry, Forget The Time You Held My Hand, Forget The Sweet Things If I Can, I Can No Longer Pretend, I Have To Remember Now That You're Just A Friend
When I Look At You My Heart Skips A Beat But Later That Beat Could Mean A Lifetime Of Tears Wasted On Something I Knew I Could Never Have
How Can You Be Friends With Someone If Everytime You Look At Them It Makes You Want Them Even More?
My Heart Was Taken By You, Broken By You And Now Is In Pieces Because Of You
As Part Of You Has Grown In Me, Together Forever Shall We Be, Never Apart Maybe In Distance But Not In Heart
Haiz. Its another cruel night. i dont know how many more nights like this can i endure i dont know how much longer can my sanity last. i dont know how long more before i will breakdown i dont know how long more will my life continue i dont know how long can i continue this conversation i dont know how long before my heart stops from beating too fast i dont know wad to do...
What should i do? i will be going bonkers anytime...
No. i cant be hurting others anymore. i'll be fine alone. at least i hope so.
While i was halfway typing for help typing for a listening ear. i changed my mind I brought it all upon myself Its my retribution i deserve it. hopefully i will be fine. i will be fine. i will be fine.
No tears. that's unlike of me Only pain Stabbing pain i could hardly breathe. Perhaps its better this way. i can conceal the pain better at least its not bleeding on the outside. Is that the way to be icyblooded? To be hurt and feel the suffering till there's no other feelings To freeze up all the tears till there's only broken smiles
I wish i could talk to someone. Anyone...
Guess no one is born a Casanova. It takes time, patience and lots of love to be one. Only then there'll be bliss
There isnt any paper for me today thought of waking up early to study but end up sleeping till 12 Went down to have my lunch And its weird to have two stallholder de towkay and towkay neo to sit with us to chat Somehow feels like VIP Lolz Guess being a VIP dont really need exotic delicacies nor classy ambience in a deluxe hotel Its the warmth that counts But i guess its diminishing.
Back to studying for chemistry, keep getting distracted...
以後都不要再联络 听你说的很简单 黑暗中静静搂紧自己 孤单有谁明白 难过懒的再去管 泪要不要流下来 我也只好默默啃蚀寂寞 留着痛灌溉 Missing You 抛去爱 渐渐模糊的期待 难道我就这样痛彻心扉 是自己活该 Missing You 我无奈 难道是为了彼此伤害 好成为扮演愉快的天才
看照片散落在一床 我在回忆中哭喊 若是自导自演的闹剧 为何美好曾拥怀 就当作分手是因为 我们在爱中看开 如果留不住 我就只有孤独来陪伴 Missing You 我坦白 突然背叛的未来 那个时间转角 你就不再留意我存在 Missing You Every Night 连星海也嘲笑我活该 我还有什麽资格放不开
陌生的人海 去哪里找爱 只有看不清等待 谁愿收留 我的期待 快来 Missing You 我坦白 突然背叛的未来 那个时间转角 你就不再留意我存在 Missing You Every Night 连星海也嘲笑我活该 我还有什麽资格放不开 我还有什麽资格放不开
Today was my Maths and Phy paper was kinda dumb ytd when half the day was gone then i realise phy came before maths anyway the Phy was easy though alot of stupid mistakes here and there Maths was relatively easy. just abit out of time and a serious stupid mistake 10 marks Why am i always making stupid mistakes? its hard to focus...
Took bus home alone as usual somehow i had always prefer to take bus alone even if there was company but recently felt kinda lonely...
i had GP paper today. it's still manageable though the compo dont have an easy question scared that i wrote out of point
Chatted with a few of my friends Laughed and joked about i tried to force a smile but deep inside its bleeding
I went back to the atrium to look for her but she's nowhere to be seen hope she'll be fine
really guilty for causing her pain i shouldnt have told her anything perhaps then she'll be happier just let me suffer with all the pain just let me know everything that hurts i'll be fine alone i am used to it
Fact always hurts...
Went home and caught in the rain Perhaps its there to wake me up
It was a cruel night. Perhaps the darkest moment of my life. i've lost everything overnight. Everything. Yes, everything. i was slapped by a vicious fact that all my efforts is futile i am the silly one all along i am the naive one.
The pain. its excruciating. I find it hard to breathe. i find it hard to live.
And there's A levels examination coming up I am trapped. I am lost. There's no meaning left to life. Tears dry up. There's none left. 别融化了眼泪
I am alone. All alone now. Back to square one. If it's so, i rather to remain alone all these while. perhaps then i wont feel so pain.
i dont know why am i starting this blog again. perhaps i jus need to blog i need to write something to feel that i am alive
i dont know what's becoming of my life. Perhaps i dont even have the courage to end all this. Perhaps i dont have the bravery to give it all up
It hurts me to see my mum questioning about my well-being when she saw me cry. i cant bring myself to tell her. Somehow deep in my heart i find it hard to trust someone who dont have the intention to give birth to me. Ever since, Things start to accumulate inside me. Perhaps i am used to it this way.
Tomorrow there'll be GP i really dont know if i am able to focus well Drank a few mouthfuls of wine, hoping that i'll sleep better. Nevertheless, i am still wide awake. i cant get to sleep. your images appear everytime i close my eyes. i'll try to forget you. i promise.
Perhaps its time to let go of the past and stop harping on it i dont want to lose everything again Should learn to cherish the people around me Thanks for everything =) Wait for me... i will be moving on with my life...
Up till now. i still dont know what i should do at all It still hurts alot.alot what should i do? i pray all night hoping that things will change hoping that i can go back to the past. It wont come true I am lost It's so painful...
Its all my fault i brought everything upon myself right from the start
Finally a week has passed. Time for a break and to reorganise my thoughts Lots of things happen in merely one week's period Things happened too fast Its difficult to catch up Mathematics was of moderate difficulty though no recurrence unexpectedly lucky PnC and Probability aint a killer..
Should I Smile Because You're My Friend Or Cry Because Thats All We'll Ever Be?
A Million Words Would Not Bring You Back, I Know Because I've Tried. Neither Would A Million Tears, I Know Because I've Cried.
Forget The Times You Walked By, Forget The Times You've Made Me Cry, Forget The Time You Held My Hand, Forget The Sweet Things If I Can, I Can No Longer Pretend, I Have To Remember Now That You're Just A Friend
When I Look At You My Heart Skips A Beat But Later That Beat Could Mean A Lifetime Of Tears Wasted On Something I Knew I Could Never Have
How Can You Be Friends With Someone If Everytime You Look At Them It Makes You Want Them Even More?
My Heart Was Taken By You, Broken By You And Now Is In Pieces Because Of You
As Part Of You Has Grown In Me, Together Forever Shall We Be, Never Apart Maybe In Distance But Not In Heart
Haiz. Its another cruel night. i dont know how many more nights like this can i endure i dont know how much longer can my sanity last. i dont know how long more before i will breakdown i dont know how long more will my life continue i dont know how long can i continue this conversation i dont know how long before my heart stops from beating too fast i dont know wad to do...
What should i do? i will be going bonkers anytime...
No. i cant be hurting others anymore. i'll be fine alone. at least i hope so.
While i was halfway typing for help typing for a listening ear. i changed my mind I brought it all upon myself Its my retribution i deserve it. hopefully i will be fine. i will be fine. i will be fine.
No tears. that's unlike of me Only pain Stabbing pain i could hardly breathe. Perhaps its better this way. i can conceal the pain better at least its not bleeding on the outside. Is that the way to be icyblooded? To be hurt and feel the suffering till there's no other feelings To freeze up all the tears till there's only broken smiles
I wish i could talk to someone. Anyone...
Guess no one is born a Casanova. It takes time, patience and lots of love to be one. Only then there'll be bliss
There isnt any paper for me today thought of waking up early to study but end up sleeping till 12 Went down to have my lunch And its weird to have two stallholder de towkay and towkay neo to sit with us to chat Somehow feels like VIP Lolz Guess being a VIP dont really need exotic delicacies nor classy ambience in a deluxe hotel Its the warmth that counts But i guess its diminishing.
Back to studying for chemistry, keep getting distracted...
以後都不要再联络 听你说的很简单 黑暗中静静搂紧自己 孤单有谁明白 难过懒的再去管 泪要不要流下来 我也只好默默啃蚀寂寞 留着痛灌溉 Missing You 抛去爱 渐渐模糊的期待 难道我就这样痛彻心扉 是自己活该 Missing You 我无奈 难道是为了彼此伤害 好成为扮演愉快的天才
看照片散落在一床 我在回忆中哭喊 若是自导自演的闹剧 为何美好曾拥怀 就当作分手是因为 我们在爱中看开 如果留不住 我就只有孤独来陪伴 Missing You 我坦白 突然背叛的未来 那个时间转角 你就不再留意我存在 Missing You Every Night 连星海也嘲笑我活该 我还有什麽资格放不开
陌生的人海 去哪里找爱 只有看不清等待 谁愿收留 我的期待 快来 Missing You 我坦白 突然背叛的未来 那个时间转角 你就不再留意我存在 Missing You Every Night 连星海也嘲笑我活该 我还有什麽资格放不开 我还有什麽资格放不开
Today was my Maths and Phy paper was kinda dumb ytd when half the day was gone then i realise phy came before maths anyway the Phy was easy though alot of stupid mistakes here and there Maths was relatively easy. just abit out of time and a serious stupid mistake 10 marks Why am i always making stupid mistakes? its hard to focus...
Took bus home alone as usual somehow i had always prefer to take bus alone even if there was company but recently felt kinda lonely...
i had GP paper today. it's still manageable though the compo dont have an easy question scared that i wrote out of point
Chatted with a few of my friends Laughed and joked about i tried to force a smile but deep inside its bleeding
I went back to the atrium to look for her but she's nowhere to be seen hope she'll be fine
really guilty for causing her pain i shouldnt have told her anything perhaps then she'll be happier just let me suffer with all the pain just let me know everything that hurts i'll be fine alone i am used to it
Fact always hurts...
Went home and caught in the rain Perhaps its there to wake me up
It was a cruel night. Perhaps the darkest moment of my life. i've lost everything overnight. Everything. Yes, everything. i was slapped by a vicious fact that all my efforts is futile i am the silly one all along i am the naive one.
The pain. its excruciating. I find it hard to breathe. i find it hard to live.
And there's A levels examination coming up I am trapped. I am lost. There's no meaning left to life. Tears dry up. There's none left. 别融化了眼泪
I am alone. All alone now. Back to square one. If it's so, i rather to remain alone all these while. perhaps then i wont feel so pain.
i dont know why am i starting this blog again. perhaps i jus need to blog i need to write something to feel that i am alive
i dont know what's becoming of my life. Perhaps i dont even have the courage to end all this. Perhaps i dont have the bravery to give it all up
It hurts me to see my mum questioning about my well-being when she saw me cry. i cant bring myself to tell her. Somehow deep in my heart i find it hard to trust someone who dont have the intention to give birth to me. Ever since, Things start to accumulate inside me. Perhaps i am used to it this way.
Tomorrow there'll be GP i really dont know if i am able to focus well Drank a few mouthfuls of wine, hoping that i'll sleep better. Nevertheless, i am still wide awake. i cant get to sleep. your images appear everytime i close my eyes. i'll try to forget you. i promise.
Batam Trip
